(He said, that'll be thirty-four ninety-five, and I said, twelve dollars change, please, and he said, thanks, have a nice day, and I said, wait, I have to tell you- you're adorable. He said, me? I said yes, you. Okay, have a good one.
And I walked into the living room and said, Mom, Dad, let's order pizza more often.)
On an only vaguely related note, here is a fic with Patrick and Pete and Ryan Ross from Panic! At The Disco.
Title: Electricityscape, or: The Subtlety Is Always What Kills You
Author: Sara
Pairing: Ryan/Patrick (Ryan/Pete, Pete/Patrick)
Summary: In which Patrick is likable. Maybe too much so.
Disclaimer: Lies, man.
Notes: for
Prompt: #22, secrets.
It was a little awkward at first, because Ryan had a pretty obvious crush on Pete, and got blushy sometimes when Pete talked to him, and ended up staring at his shoes a lot and hiding beneath the brim of his hat and answering questions with one word or less. So Pete spent a lot of time talking to Brendon and Spencer and Brent while Ryan would pretend to be really interested in the posters on the wall, or the threadbare edges of his vest, or anything but Pete Wentz standing like, right in front of him, just being there. Because, oh my god, PETE WENTZ. Ryan tried to be the cool guy who was in a band and wrote lyrics and had informed opinions and actually spoke in words, and he totally, totally failed.
He could talk to Andy just fine, and Joe was sort of impossible not to like, but he ended up really getting along with Patrick, who smiled at him and listened when he talked and had really interesting things to say about music, and sometimes, whenever the bands were together, he and Patrick would just find a wall and sit down and talk for awhile until Pete came over kicking Patrick for attention or Spence sat down and started talking about whatever was on his mind at that precise moment. But Patrick was always there next time, and not long into the tour, Ryan realized that they had become pretty good friends. He still couldn't manage more than a few sentences at a time around Pete, but hey. Baby steps.
But then sometimes Pete would come around trying to talk to them and Ryan found himself wishing that he'd just go talk to Brent or something, because he and Patrick got involved in these really intense discussions about life and being on the road, and Patrick knew things, like, he'd been doing this since forever, practically, and Ryan just liked to lean his head back against the wall and listen to Patrick talk and watch his mouth move and the light glint off his glasses. He just. He liked Patrick.
Brendon had dragged him over to their bus so he could talk to Pete about something, and Patrick was actually off doing something, so Ryan looked around the bus, touching things and imagining what it would be like to have one of their own someday, a mode of transportation that came with actual beds, and wasn't, you know, a van. Although the bus was a little cold. Ryan wished he'd brought a sweater.
A grey newsboy cap was smashed into one of the couch cushions; Ryan was pretty sure he'd seen Patrick wearing it the other day. It made his eyes look really blue. He pulled it out and shook the shape back into it, and the motion caught Pete's eye and he glanced over, grinning. "You look cute in hats," Pete said, putting it on Ryan's head, and after the moment of hysterical speechlessness passed, Ryan muttered, "thanks." He didn't take the hat off.
"You're the one that stole my hat!" Patrick said the next time Ryan saw him.
Ryan reached for the brim guiltily, saying, "No, no, it was Pete, he, um-"
"Say no more," Patrick said, with a grand wave of his hand. "Keep it, it looks better on you."
Ryan muttered something about that being totally not true and Patrick must have at least half heard him, because he smiled and flicked the brim of the cap lightly and Ryan felt sort of like he was standing in sunshine in a field of wildflowers. Or like, something less stupid but no less accurate.
"Hey, come over to our bus later, I've got something you should listen to," Patrick said, and that was cool because Patrick always had random awesome music that Ryan had never even heard of, he was totally a music geek, but in the like, really cool way that Ryan couldn't really get the hang of. Ryan said okay and there was a moment where they were walking pretty closely together and the backs of their knuckles brushed and Ryan felt suddenly, absurdly electric, and he licked his lips and looked over but Patrick only smiled and said see you later. Ryan watched him go.
The show that night was amazing, and Ryan wore Patrick's hat and played music and smiled and smiled and smiled. And after, as he walked the backway through the venue to where the buses were parked, he heard voices around the corner, and stopped cold.
"He has a crush on you, Patrick," Pete was saying, and Ryan felt a sudden sick certainty in his stomach, because Pete. Pete wasn't wrong. Pete knew, he knew, Ryan must have been so obvious-
"He's just gonna hang out for awhile, I don't see what the big deal is," Patrick said, "I like his company, okay? He's a good guy."
"Oh, nice," Pete said. "Keep leading the kid on-"
"I didn't even know I was doing anything!" Patrick protested. "We just hung out a lot! We're friends! My friends don't usually get crushes on me, excuse me for being suprised!"
Pete shook his head. "How could you not notice? I mean, he looks at you like he's about to rip his fucking heart out and hand it to you-"
"He does not- he doesn't look at me any differently than you do! God!"
Pete didn't say anything to that, but he wasn't looking at Patrick anymore either.
Patrick said, "Oh."
Patrick said, "Oh."
Ryan took the hat off. He left it in the corridor.
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Poor Ryan...
I loved the switches of moods in this :D ♥
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YES. Just...yes.
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April 21 2006, 06:38:37 UTC 6 years ago
but I did like the whole...
"He does not- he doesn't look at me any differently than you do! God!"
yea good work..
April 21 2006, 07:09:01 UTC 6 years ago
Glad you liked it!
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April 21 2006, 10:24:45 UTC 6 years ago
♥
April 21 2006, 11:34:55 UTC 6 years ago
Such good stuff.
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April 22 2006, 03:48:35 UTC 6 years ago
Seriously, do you live around Auburn, Washington and order from Round Table? Because no kidding, the boy is fucking pocketsized. And not even like, my back pocket, like the little fifth pocket on Levi's. It's intense. Maybe they're just breeding cute boys smaller now.
April 21 2006, 13:39:23 UTC 6 years ago
*SNIFFLE*
It's really early to get my heart all trampled on! I love your voice so so much and then you make me sad and I hate you.April 21 2006, 14:16:20 UTC 6 years ago
(It's funny, I thought about actually putting a 'WARNING: Will make Sky sad' thingy on this fic, but then I totally forgot. I'll, uh, try and do something nice to them later, okay? Because so far my FOB fic has been scarily emo, and that just ain't right.)
April 21 2006, 14:47:59 UTC 6 years ago
I an incoherent with love for this fic. Just in case you were wondering.
I'm totally holding out for a direct sequel, though. >.> You need to break them all into little tiny fragmented pieces, and then make them all happy and whole and give them milk and cookies, dammit!
April 21 2006, 15:20:30 UTC 6 years ago
I adore this. Like, a lot. I have to read it over and over again. It's just that good.
April 21 2006, 16:01:29 UTC 6 years ago
Reading this a second time (okay, fourth, whatever) reminds me why you're so flipping awesome and why I am so glad you inhabit the other half of my brain. But it makes me want to write fic, and that is bad, because I can't this week. Fuck.
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April 22 2006, 03:53:50 UTC 6 years ago
But I'll be writing more Panic! fic, certainly, and it can't be all rain clouds and kicked puppies all the time. So, yes.
April 21 2006, 21:41:14 UTC 6 years ago
so
one:
+flail+
two:
yes ive already read it but im reading it again, so whatever.
three:
theres so many bits that i want to pick out and stutter about, ill comment while im rereading it for the
fourthfifthsixth time.THIS bit, is just perfect. like, sheer perfection with a glossy coat on top. its painful how i can relate.
'Ryan would pretend to be really interested in the posters on the wall, or the threadbare edges of his vest, or anything but Pete Wentz standing like, right in front of him, just being there. Because, oh my god, PETE WENTZ.'
yes. OH MY GOD PETE WENTZ.
and then, i love how with pete its like a school
girlboy crush, but with patrick its almost like it creeps up on him and it was never a crush, just.. love. he literally fell into love. thats the way love should be. ♥'kicking Patrick for attention'
i can see this.
'He just. He liked Patrick.' this is brilliant, i liked the way you captured the hesitation and almost confused uncertainness of it, so well. a full stop was perfect here.
more, yet more, fantastic things. ill keep going.
the tiny bit with the hat (OMGthathat. : ] ) was really brilliant, because its
nice that- it just is. i think you get me anyways.when i do things like this i find myself rambling on about things that arent really all that fantastic writing skill, just things i love in the story, so ill try not to.
and then OH. the ENDING. hm.
can i think of words to do this justice ?
i can try.
HEEWPHWAP. that kinda gets it. i big deep heavy sigh, and then the PHWAP of *EEEE* gleeful excitement, even though its not happy. its very... um. satisfying but glum, and like... awww +patpathug+. get me ? no, i didnt think so.
ANYWAYS...
ok, whole paragraph of beauty coming up.
'"He has a crush on you, Patrick," Pete was saying, and Ryan felt a sudden sick certainty in his stomach, because Pete. Pete wasn't wrong. Pete knew, he knew, Ryan must have been so obvious-'
its half like he didnt know, and half like he knew perfectly well and didnt want to even say it to himself because he didnt want anyone else to know.
'Pete shook his head. "How could you not notice? I mean, he looks at you like he's about to rip his fucking heart out and hand it to you-"
"He does not- he doesn't look at me any differently than you do! God!"'
this. is. perfect.
literal literary perfection. not a flaw. at all.
and its all in petes words, because pete means it too and i had no idea which bit of that to emphasize most so i did it all separately because.- pete means it, and pete means it, and pete means it too. and then pete means it too.
the 'rip out his heart' bit is brilliant because its all like 'OH.' and you realise 'GOD he must have been !' and its almost as if its you and youre ryan and youve just realised your fatal mistake.
and when pete doesnt say anything but he just looks away and patricks going 'oh. oh.' just summarizes the pain and realisation of it all so.. sigh. i have to stop saying perfect. perfectly.
and the pain and dissapointment and that feeling of a friendship lost is so there with the hat. just all left in the hat. in the corridor. for patrick to find later, along with all ryans excitement and enthusiasm and happiness about playing that night.
stuff like this makes you think about how they feel off of the stage.
+sigh+
this doesnt need a sequel. leave it. with things like this and lengthenings just drag it out and stretch the perfection. leave it. ♥
but WRITE ME SOME MORE. please. x
April 21 2006, 21:42:34 UTC 6 years ago
i wrote too much again.
sorry. xx m
April 21 2006, 21:52:52 UTC 6 years ago
I was surprised this didn't turn in to a threesome, though. Well, because it's YOU and because I'm a h0r. Well done, regardless. [smooches]
April 22 2006, 03:52:38 UTC 6 years ago
Somehow this ended up being one of the only ideas I've had in this fandom that didn't involve lots of sex. Which is sad. But later I'm going to write Patrick having sex with the entirety of Panic! At The Disco, so I think that'll be fun for all involved.
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