I like you. ([info]cyclogenesis) wrote,
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kittens Saturdays seventy degree weather first kisses

So, today we ordered pizza for dinner, and dad gave me the money and when the pizza boy came to the door he was short and wore a baseball cap and his hair was longish and it was basically like the gods gifting me with my very own Patrick Stump, version pizza boy. Seriously, I have seen the boys out there doing their best Wentz impression (which is a trend that needs to continue. forEVER.) but this was the first Patrick clone I've seen, fumbling on my doorstep with three pizza boxes and seriously, he was maybe legal to drink but only just, and he had a nice smile and I just about died, friends list, it's true.

(He said, that'll be thirty-four ninety-five, and I said, twelve dollars change, please, and he said, thanks, have a nice day, and I said, wait, I have to tell you- you're adorable. He said, me? I said yes, you. Okay, have a good one.

And I walked into the living room and said, Mom, Dad, let's order pizza more often.)

On an only vaguely related note, here is a fic with Patrick and Pete and Ryan Ross from Panic! At The Disco.



Title: Electricityscape, or: The Subtlety Is Always What Kills You
Author: Sara
Pairing: Ryan/Patrick (Ryan/Pete, Pete/Patrick)
Summary: In which Patrick is likable. Maybe too much so.
Disclaimer: Lies, man.
Notes: for [info]yeats, because.
Prompt: #22, secrets.


It was a little awkward at first, because Ryan had a pretty obvious crush on Pete, and got blushy sometimes when Pete talked to him, and ended up staring at his shoes a lot and hiding beneath the brim of his hat and answering questions with one word or less. So Pete spent a lot of time talking to Brendon and Spencer and Brent while Ryan would pretend to be really interested in the posters on the wall, or the threadbare edges of his vest, or anything but Pete Wentz standing like, right in front of him, just being there. Because, oh my god, PETE WENTZ. Ryan tried to be the cool guy who was in a band and wrote lyrics and had informed opinions and actually spoke in words, and he totally, totally failed.

He could talk to Andy just fine, and Joe was sort of impossible not to like, but he ended up really getting along with Patrick, who smiled at him and listened when he talked and had really interesting things to say about music, and sometimes, whenever the bands were together, he and Patrick would just find a wall and sit down and talk for awhile until Pete came over kicking Patrick for attention or Spence sat down and started talking about whatever was on his mind at that precise moment. But Patrick was always there next time, and not long into the tour, Ryan realized that they had become pretty good friends. He still couldn't manage more than a few sentences at a time around Pete, but hey. Baby steps.

But then sometimes Pete would come around trying to talk to them and Ryan found himself wishing that he'd just go talk to Brent or something, because he and Patrick got involved in these really intense discussions about life and being on the road, and Patrick knew things, like, he'd been doing this since forever, practically, and Ryan just liked to lean his head back against the wall and listen to Patrick talk and watch his mouth move and the light glint off his glasses. He just. He liked Patrick.

Brendon had dragged him over to their bus so he could talk to Pete about something, and Patrick was actually off doing something, so Ryan looked around the bus, touching things and imagining what it would be like to have one of their own someday, a mode of transportation that came with actual beds, and wasn't, you know, a van. Although the bus was a little cold. Ryan wished he'd brought a sweater.

A grey newsboy cap was smashed into one of the couch cushions; Ryan was pretty sure he'd seen Patrick wearing it the other day. It made his eyes look really blue. He pulled it out and shook the shape back into it, and the motion caught Pete's eye and he glanced over, grinning. "You look cute in hats," Pete said, putting it on Ryan's head, and after the moment of hysterical speechlessness passed, Ryan muttered, "thanks." He didn't take the hat off.

"You're the one that stole my hat!" Patrick said the next time Ryan saw him.

Ryan reached for the brim guiltily, saying, "No, no, it was Pete, he, um-"

"Say no more," Patrick said, with a grand wave of his hand. "Keep it, it looks better on you."

Ryan muttered something about that being totally not true and Patrick must have at least half heard him, because he smiled and flicked the brim of the cap lightly and Ryan felt sort of like he was standing in sunshine in a field of wildflowers. Or like, something less stupid but no less accurate.

"Hey, come over to our bus later, I've got something you should listen to," Patrick said, and that was cool because Patrick always had random awesome music that Ryan had never even heard of, he was totally a music geek, but in the like, really cool way that Ryan couldn't really get the hang of. Ryan said okay and there was a moment where they were walking pretty closely together and the backs of their knuckles brushed and Ryan felt suddenly, absurdly electric, and he licked his lips and looked over but Patrick only smiled and said see you later. Ryan watched him go.

The show that night was amazing, and Ryan wore Patrick's hat and played music and smiled and smiled and smiled. And after, as he walked the backway through the venue to where the buses were parked, he heard voices around the corner, and stopped cold.

"He has a crush on you, Patrick," Pete was saying, and Ryan felt a sudden sick certainty in his stomach, because Pete. Pete wasn't wrong. Pete knew, he knew, Ryan must have been so obvious-

"He's just gonna hang out for awhile, I don't see what the big deal is," Patrick said, "I like his company, okay? He's a good guy."

"Oh, nice," Pete said. "Keep leading the kid on-"

"I didn't even know I was doing anything!" Patrick protested. "We just hung out a lot! We're friends! My friends don't usually get crushes on me, excuse me for being suprised!"

Pete shook his head. "How could you not notice? I mean, he looks at you like he's about to rip his fucking heart out and hand it to you-"

"He does not- he doesn't look at me any differently than you do! God!"

Pete didn't say anything to that, but he wasn't looking at Patrick anymore either.

Patrick said, "Oh."

Patrick said, "Oh."

Ryan took the hat off. He left it in the corridor.
Tags: my fic, slashfic25

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[info]instrumentality

April 21 2006, 05:58:38 UTC 6 years ago

oh man, this is just every kind of yes. cute and angsty. there's nothing better in the world.

[info]cyclogenesis

April 21 2006, 07:07:21 UTC 6 years ago

I make them like each other. The better to destroy them all later, AHAHAHA, I mean. Thank you.

[info]sarahatthedisco

April 21 2006, 06:02:58 UTC 6 years ago

=o
Poor Ryan...
I loved the switches of moods in this :D ♥

[info]cyclogenesis

April 21 2006, 07:07:45 UTC 6 years ago

Thank you! :D

[info]callsigns

April 21 2006, 06:06:19 UTC 6 years ago

Oh god. You expanded it. You expanded it to make my heart break. That's a big yes.

[info]cyclogenesis

April 21 2006, 07:08:13 UTC 6 years ago

Suffering is sexy, amiright?

[info]callsigns

6 years ago

[info]_mydecember_

April 21 2006, 06:10:00 UTC 6 years ago

*incoherently flails at you*

YES. Just...yes.

[info]cyclogenesis

April 21 2006, 07:08:35 UTC 6 years ago

Yay! *flails back excitedly*

[info]all_drained_out

April 21 2006, 06:38:37 UTC 6 years ago

aww poor ryan...
but I did like the whole...

"He does not- he doesn't look at me any differently than you do! God!"


yea good work..

[info]cyclogenesis

April 21 2006, 07:09:01 UTC 6 years ago

Yes, I was going for subtlety. Or something. Angst. Kittens.

Glad you liked it!

[info]drunk_off_tired

April 21 2006, 07:42:33 UTC 6 years ago

My last review messed up..but I think [info]_mydecember_ said it best.

[info]sandwich_armada

April 21 2006, 07:58:40 UTC 6 years ago

All I've got is love. I could feel Ryan's shoulders droop and his little heart sink with the ending conversation. Believable, well-characterized, perfectly angsty. Love, love, love. =)

[info]nicky1388

April 21 2006, 10:24:45 UTC 6 years ago

oh. poor ry! this story was really good. a little angst in the morning is nice.

[info]likeaspark

April 21 2006, 11:34:55 UTC 6 years ago

Oh ouch, poor Ryan. Poor wee, angsty Ryan.

Such good stuff.

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[info]cyclogenesis

April 22 2006, 03:48:35 UTC 6 years ago

Yeah, you know, sometimes? Things just don't work out. But I figure that doesn't make a story not worth telling. I'm glad you liked it anyhow!

Seriously, do you live around Auburn, Washington and order from Round Table? Because no kidding, the boy is fucking pocketsized. And not even like, my back pocket, like the little fifth pocket on Levi's. It's intense. Maybe they're just breeding cute boys smaller now.

[info]schuyler

April 21 2006, 13:39:23 UTC 6 years ago

*SNIFFLE*

It's really early to get my heart all trampled on! I love your voice so so much and then you make me sad and I hate you.

[info]cyclogenesis

April 21 2006, 14:16:20 UTC 6 years ago

But I love you!! :D

(It's funny, I thought about actually putting a 'WARNING: Will make Sky sad' thingy on this fic, but then I totally forgot. I'll, uh, try and do something nice to them later, okay? Because so far my FOB fic has been scarily emo, and that just ain't right.)

[info]tricksterquinn

April 21 2006, 14:47:59 UTC 6 years ago

*FLAIL*

I an incoherent with love for this fic. Just in case you were wondering.

I'm totally holding out for a direct sequel, though. >.> You need to break them all into little tiny fragmented pieces, and then make them all happy and whole and give them milk and cookies, dammit!

[info]mezzafrezza

April 21 2006, 15:20:30 UTC 6 years ago

Ah! "He looks at me just like you do!" Haha, oblivious Patrick.

I adore this. Like, a lot. I have to read it over and over again. It's just that good.

[info]deliberatehips

April 21 2006, 16:01:29 UTC 6 years ago

*twirls you*

Reading this a second time (okay, fourth, whatever) reminds me why you're so flipping awesome and why I am so glad you inhabit the other half of my brain. But it makes me want to write fic, and that is bad, because I can't this week. Fuck.

[info]clumsygyrl

April 21 2006, 17:51:52 UTC 6 years ago

oh ryan. ryan ryan ryan. *pets him*

[info]anothersadsong

April 21 2006, 18:41:48 UTC 6 years ago

Aw. Aw. *hugs Ryan*

[info]cyclogenesis

April 22 2006, 03:50:21 UTC 6 years ago

Secretly, this was just an excuse to have people comment with Ryan icons at me. My evil plan is WORKING.

[info]lalabebe

April 21 2006, 19:18:35 UTC 6 years ago

Oh Ryan. *hugs him lots* This was so good!

[info]nevermore_lies

April 21 2006, 20:59:55 UTC 6 years ago

PLEASE TELL ME THIS IS GOING TO CONTINUE.

[info]cyclogenesis

April 22 2006, 03:53:50 UTC 6 years ago

Haha, nope! I hurt them and then I leave them to suffer. It's just my way. :D :D

But I'll be writing more Panic! fic, certainly, and it can't be all rain clouds and kicked puppies all the time. So, yes.

[info]x_bluesoulsmoke

April 21 2006, 21:41:14 UTC 6 years ago

okayy.
so
one:
+flail+
two:
yes ive already read it but im reading it again, so whatever.
three:
theres so many bits that i want to pick out and stutter about, ill comment while im rereading it for the fourth fifth sixth time.

THIS bit, is just perfect. like, sheer perfection with a glossy coat on top. its painful how i can relate.
'Ryan would pretend to be really interested in the posters on the wall, or the threadbare edges of his vest, or anything but Pete Wentz standing like, right in front of him, just being there. Because, oh my god, PETE WENTZ.'
yes. OH MY GOD PETE WENTZ.

and then, i love how with pete its like a schoolgirlboy crush, but with patrick its almost like it creeps up on him and it was never a crush, just.. love. he literally fell into love. thats the way love should be. ♥

'kicking Patrick for attention'
i can see this.

'He just. He liked Patrick.' this is brilliant, i liked the way you captured the hesitation and almost confused uncertainness of it, so well. a full stop was perfect here.

more, yet more, fantastic things. ill keep going.

the tiny bit with the hat (OMGthathat. : ] ) was really brilliant, because its nice that - it just is. i think you get me anyways.
when i do things like this i find myself rambling on about things that arent really all that fantastic writing skill, just things i love in the story, so ill try not to.

and then OH. the ENDING. hm.
can i think of words to do this justice ?
i can try.
HEEWPHWAP. that kinda gets it. i big deep heavy sigh, and then the PHWAP of *EEEE* gleeful excitement, even though its not happy. its very... um. satisfying but glum, and like... awww +patpathug+. get me ? no, i didnt think so.
ANYWAYS...

ok, whole paragraph of beauty coming up.
'"He has a crush on you, Patrick," Pete was saying, and Ryan felt a sudden sick certainty in his stomach, because Pete. Pete wasn't wrong. Pete knew, he knew, Ryan must have been so obvious-'
its half like he didnt know, and half like he knew perfectly well and didnt want to even say it to himself because he didnt want anyone else to know.

'Pete shook his head. "How could you not notice? I mean, he looks at you like he's about to rip his fucking heart out and hand it to you-"

"He does not- he doesn't look at me any differently than you do! God!"'

this. is. perfect.
literal literary perfection. not a flaw. at all.

and its all in petes words, because pete means it too and i had no idea which bit of that to emphasize most so i did it all separately because.- pete means it, and pete means it, and pete means it too. and then pete means it too.
the 'rip out his heart' bit is brilliant because its all like 'OH.' and you realise 'GOD he must have been !' and its almost as if its you and youre ryan and youve just realised your fatal mistake.
and when pete doesnt say anything but he just looks away and patricks going 'oh. oh.' just summarizes the pain and realisation of it all so.. sigh. i have to stop saying perfect. perfectly.

and the pain and dissapointment and that feeling of a friendship lost is so there with the hat. just all left in the hat. in the corridor. for patrick to find later, along with all ryans excitement and enthusiasm and happiness about playing that night.

stuff like this makes you think about how they feel off of the stage.
+sigh+

this doesnt need a sequel. leave it. with things like this and lengthenings just drag it out and stretch the perfection. leave it. ♥

but WRITE ME SOME MORE. please. x

[info]x_bluesoulsmoke

April 21 2006, 21:42:34 UTC 6 years ago

oh dear.
i wrote too much again.

sorry. xx m

[info]unholyglee

April 21 2006, 21:52:52 UTC 6 years ago

hahahahadude! I don't even KNOW who these kids ARE and I feel bad for wotsis? [checks] Ryan? Yeah, him. Poor lil' emo boy. Falling for the first one and not knowing he's fallen for the second one until the first one points it out to the second one along with his OWN crush.

I was surprised this didn't turn in to a threesome, though. Well, because it's YOU and because I'm a h0r. Well done, regardless. [smooches]

[info]cyclogenesis

April 22 2006, 03:52:38 UTC 6 years ago

J! Sugar! You read this! You don't know how pleased that makes me, c'mere you.

Somehow this ended up being one of the only ideas I've had in this fandom that didn't involve lots of sex. Which is sad. But later I'm going to write Patrick having sex with the entirety of Panic! At The Disco, so I think that'll be fun for all involved.

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[info]violin_road

April 22 2006, 02:02:59 UTC 6 years ago

Oh my god you ripped MY heart out and I think you ATE it or something because I will never be happy again. Unless this is resolved with like, a threesome or something, but the sort of threesome that causes happiness and puppies, not the sort that causes horrible tension and everyone hates each other.

[info]blacklilly

April 22 2006, 18:47:48 UTC 6 years ago

Ooohhhh this is the first Fall Out Boy fanfiction I read, and I am so glad, so glad. Thank you for writing this~

[info]andnightsgrow

April 24 2006, 04:30:09 UTC 6 years ago

this cute and angsty at the same time. I love patrick at the end, teehee. XD Much love for this fic, hun. ♥

[info]jzbell

May 2 2006, 02:27:44 UTC 6 years ago

I'm so glad you posted this. It's so adorable, and then the end, and I'm all *flails*. Yeah.
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